Week 4 - We gather in grief 

What if your feelings of unbelonging, of sadness and rage, of despair and disgust, hold all the wisdoms we need right now?

In the final week of January 2026, as part of the ATD Lectorate’s Research Month, the Grief and Listening Collective (Anna Arov, Kai Hazelwood, and Rajni Shah) will be in residence in the dance studio at the ATD (Jodenbreestraat). As part of our residency, we’d like to open up the space for others who are working with, experiencing, or curious about embodied grief-related practices, to come and learn alongside us. We are planning to open up the studio twice during the week, on Wednesday 28th and Thursday 29th January, and we’d really love to meet other students, teachers, staff, and artists who are working with, dealing with, or dancing with grief.

  • Weds 28th 14-17h: Grief Time, Reptile Time, Listening Time - how do we slow down together and share solidarity in grief, in sickness, and in exhaustion? Join artists Anna Arov, Kai Hazelwood, and Rajni Shah for a workshop in which we can meet each other in, with, and alongside grief.
  • Thurs 29th 17-20h: Grievers’ Gathering - an invitation to share food, practices, and stories with others who care about grief work. All are welcome.
  • Location: Danstheater, Academie voor Theater en Dans, Jodenbreestraat 3

Reservation information

28 January 14:00
Grief Time, Reptile Time, Listening Time
Reservations click here(free of charge) 

29 January 17:00
Grievers’ Gathering
Reservations click here(free of charge) 

If you have questions, or have troubles booking, please email rajni.shah@ahk.nl

Grief and Listening Collective 

Anna Arov, Kai Hazelwood, and Rajni Shah have come together to make a Grief and Listening Collective. Who are we? We are friends, co-conspirators, and allies to each other. Having followed very different life paths, we all find ourselves in a place where grief and listening practices feel urgent to us. We begin from our own embodied experiences. Rajni is a brown, queer, trans non-binary feminist killjoy. Kai is a Black, queer, Disabled cis-woman who identifies as a creative mischief maker working in community arts since 2010. Anna is an aging, queer, white, jewish anti-zionist. All three of us are artists, coming from backgrounds in performance art (Rajni), dance (Kai), and writing (Anna). We have all had successful careers in our fields, and now find ourselves wanting to focus our creative skills towards collective healing.

More?

Anna Arov (they, she) is a writer and artist. They teach writing at the Royal Academy of Art in the Hague and are an editor and curator for Versal. Their work appears in various literary journals, editorials, zines, and live. Anna is the author of two poetry chapbooks. Anna’s writing centers around grief and queerness.

“I move through the world as an aging body, queer, and jewish anti-zionist. Over the years my practice has begun to focus around grief, loss, and transition. I work through the senses, tasting grief, smelling it, listening to it. Articulating and moving closer to the texture of grief through language, with the understanding that language can be insufficient. I compose rituals to amplify connection to the self. Gathering with Rajni and Kai, collaborating, experimenting, and imagining, towards a playful care environment fills me with joy!” – Anna

 

Kai Hazelwood (she, her) is a multi award winning transdisciplinary Disabled, Black, and queer artist and researcher. She has taught at universities and art institutions around the world. Kai is the founder and director of Good Trouble Makers, a practice driven collaborative arts project celebrating queer identities and centering disabled and chronically ill QTBIPOC. From her perspective as an embodied researcher and changemaker Kai works to foster communal healing for QTBIPOC and unravel embodied white supremacy.

“My work is in slowly studying the body, my body, my ancestral body, my cultural body and  tuning my ability to listen to it. I invite you to discover your own brilliance as I uncover mine, because enlivened, embodied beings have the power to change the world. My dream is to create space alongside Rajni and Anna where we together, through the collective magic of listening deeply, grieving and playing, raze to the ground colonization and its offspring: white supremacy, capitalism, cis-heteronomativity and ableism. Where we use art to conjure, and create joyful community because, to put it bluntly: it’s not about a seat at the table, fuck the table, burn it! Let’s dance on its ashes, to music of our own making, and together use its materials to create something better, something that leaves no one behind, and is all our own.” - Kai

 

Rajni Shah (they, them) has been making performance since 1999. They are queer, quiet, trans non-binary, and a feminist killjoy. They care about listening and gathering as creative and political acts. In 2021, they published their first monograph, Experiments in Listening, as a book and series of accompanying zines, as part of the Performance Philosophy series with Rowman & Littlefield. They are currently Researcher, Tutor, and half of the Head-Heart of the THIRD programme at the Academy of Theatre and Dance, University of the Arts Amsterdam (AHK).

"My most profound hope right now is that we find ways to be not okay together, to be unwell together in this unwell world, and to show up alongside each other recognising the ways in which we are pulled so hard towards fight and action that we often lose hold of what really matters, of who we are and who we might be in the longer arc of time and justice. I invited Anna and Kai to work with me on setting up a grief and listening collective based on grief and listening gatherings I have held in different communities over the past ten years, from university rooms to queer clubs to arts spaces and feminist killjoy youth gatherings, and the growing feedback that this is the work we need right now, collectively.” – Rajni
 

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